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Sleep, Sweet sleep. How fleeting thou art.

Yeah, so I have an almost 6 month old who does not sleep through the night.... Okay, mothers of the world: all together now, *collective sigh* I don't know what the heck to do. She will sleep pretty good a couple nights and then it all goes to hell for a week or more. I've tried a schedule, I've tried no schedule. I nurse her whenever she wants (probably more often than she wants, lets be honest she isn't exactly petite) during the day. I know babies this age can be distracted and not eat enough in the daytime so I've tried feeding her in a nice quiet dark room. I've tried cosleeping. IT DOESN"T WORK!
She is just a super high needs kid I guess. Next time you see me I may be bald from pulling my hair out. Please try not to laugh at me, it'll just make my self esteem worse.
Abby was easy. She slept through from 6 weeks. I don't get it.
What was it like to sleep more than 3 hours at a time? I can't remember. What was it like to get up in the middle of the night just because I'm thirsty, and not to have something sucking on my nipples all night long? It's sad- that would have been considered sexy and kinky 4 years ago.... NOT ANYMORE.
To anyone who has suffered through this or is currently, you have my sympathy. Any tips? I'm willing to try anything at this point.

Just a freaking vent (warning: adult language used, don’t read if this offends you)

I hate (a certain bank I won't name). I need to vent before I call them again or I'm gonna fcuking blow up.... How hard is it to let me know, before you transfer me to the 12th person I've talked to today, that to make the stupid payment I'm gonna need that routing number I don't have, and give it to me. So I don't have to feel like an ass, and call you back AGAIN crying this time out of frustration to get the stupid number, only to have to call another freaking number and talk to another person because the automated system doesn't recognize my fcuking account number. And seeing all the trouble this has caused me... wouldn't have just been easier to send me my PIN like you were supposed to (over a month ago). Or the first time I called to let you know I hadn't received it yet, instead of telling me to wait a few more days (it had already been 2 weeks) just fix it the way the lady I spoke to today fixed it. Yeah thanks for wasting an hour of my life. Now I understand why, when I worked at a call center, the customers were so pissed when they finally got to a person.
The only reason I started the damn account in the first place was to make our car payment. Now they have 180 of our dollars held hostage. I'm wondering if it isn't some ploy to make more interest off our money. "Yeah, we're sending your PIN right out (not) and don't worry if it doesn't come real fast, it's separate from your cards (hahaha), and no problem if it doesn't show up, just go into a branch." (I'll give them this one, how are they supposed to know we live 45 miles from the nearest one?) Assholes. I'll be closing my account.
Those of you that know me, will be able to tell how pissed I am. I don't EVER talk like that. I've haven't said that many cuss words since I was a stupid teenager.
I feel much better now. On to the phone call!

Holy Crap

Why the heck do I think I need to get back in shape? What purpose does the torture and agony of making myself run serve, really? What the heck was I thinking? My aching muscles are protesting today... I wish I had never stopped being in shape in the first place. Oh, to run without huffing and having black spots in my eyes, those were the days, I tell ya.
On a more positive note, the more I do it the easier it is getting. I actually made it all the way down my road and partway down the next last night before I had to walk. Impressive, in a small, my-own-little-world kinda way. I knew the first couple weeks would suck, I vividly remember the first week of cross country practice in high school, having to climb up the stupid stairs to class. Maybe if I focus on remembering what this beginning part is like I won't ever get out of shape again. Ugh. More positive stuff, I have lost almost 5 lbs from about a week ago. Encouraging. Plus once I lose 10 lbs I get my incentive "reward" of buying some awesome sexy new work out clothes WOOO HOO :) This may seem like a stupid thing to get excited about, but not for me. I'm pretty stoked about it actually.
Yeah, keep thinking positive I tell myself.... Now if my screaming muscles would shut up long enough for me to hear myself thinking this, I'll be set.

Yes this is, in fact, a blog about...

Well.... Nothing, really. :D I'm so funny, I know. On a side note, (and that would be on the side of all the 'nothingness') I am having a good day. Or should I say I had a good day since it is now after 8 pm. My recollection of today could, perhaps, be slightly colored by the fact that both kids are now in bed (thank goodness it was easy tonight). Kadence was in a pretty good mood all day despite her (my) lack of sleep last night. And the night before. And the one before that. The night before that one she slept 8 hours straight, around 5 of which I got to sleep straight (amazing btw). So, yeah. I don't get it. Obviously she has proved she can sleep that long. Is it some clever ruse to make mommy think she is in control and then BAM! "Hahahaha, I don't think so mom! Now for the every 2.5 hours game, woooohoooo!"? So sly.
To add to the randomness... my arm hurts. I spent a portion of the day playing with my birthday present. No, that's incorrect. I was preparing to be able to play with it. You see, Whit got me a new bow (and that is of the bow-and-arrow type, not the put-in-your-hair or overdress-your-Christmas-present types), it came yesterday. Unfortunately I can't draw it back yet, therefore I am working up to it using my old bow, which is really a bummer. Having something new and shiny and all I can do is look and stroke it (yeah yeah I know what you're thinking, perverts).
And my last random thought for the day:


Lemonade flavored Koolaid is yummy.